So my life has devolved into this:
Step 1: see new email, phone message, etc. about something I need to do.
Step 2: ignore message until it is no longer pertinent.
Step 3: do laundry.
Step 4: realize that I should have done something about that something instead of letting it drop.
Step 5: get annoyed and promise to do better next time. (see Step 1)
Grr. I know I'm not the only one who lives like this sometimes. But sometimes, every once in a while, on my off days, I feel the tiniest bit like I'm the only one with so many plans that aren't going anywhere. See, I'm still in the planning stages on most of...my life.
I have some event planning to do for the CEF fall banquet (one of my favorite times of the year when we get to reflect on the summer and what God has done), and some sleepover planning so our summer missionaries can get together before the fall banquet (more fun!).
But there's also plans like, how will I raise support this fall so I can continue working with CEF, or should I quit working with CEF and get a normal part-time job to juggle with my current part-time job? File under "Job Plans."
Then there's my living situation; I'm in stage one of considering a move, stage one being, "who could rent a place with me?" and "what all must I consider before making a move -- proximity to my school, or to work, or whether or not I can also afford a car?" Also, "can I really afford a move when I may or may not be between jobs (see "Job Plans")?" That's a can of worms I file under "Place Plans."
Umm, and then there's school, but I've opened and shut that can of worms so many times, it seems like undue reiteration. "School Plans."
How about, "How shall I tell my grandmother I'm not in school this fall (and what to reply to her when she disowns me)"? Eh, file under "School Plans" -- that works.
Should I go with what I want to do with all these things? As I've told my dad recently (we had one of those Big Talks he's rather fond of), it seems that none of my options are good options, or at least, options that I would like. I seem to be stuck in my planning, between a rock and a hard place.
God, on the other hand, is unrestrained in what He does. He says in Isaiah 46, "My purpose will stand. I will do all that I please." Hey God, can you do some of that in my life?
...Wait, what do you mean you already are?
Step 1: see new email, phone message, etc. about something I need to do.
Step 2: ignore message until it is no longer pertinent.
Step 3: do laundry.
Step 4: realize that I should have done something about that something instead of letting it drop.
Step 5: get annoyed and promise to do better next time. (see Step 1)
Grr. I know I'm not the only one who lives like this sometimes. But sometimes, every once in a while, on my off days, I feel the tiniest bit like I'm the only one with so many plans that aren't going anywhere. See, I'm still in the planning stages on most of...my life.
I have some event planning to do for the CEF fall banquet (one of my favorite times of the year when we get to reflect on the summer and what God has done), and some sleepover planning so our summer missionaries can get together before the fall banquet (more fun!).
But there's also plans like, how will I raise support this fall so I can continue working with CEF, or should I quit working with CEF and get a normal part-time job to juggle with my current part-time job? File under "Job Plans."
Then there's my living situation; I'm in stage one of considering a move, stage one being, "who could rent a place with me?" and "what all must I consider before making a move -- proximity to my school, or to work, or whether or not I can also afford a car?" Also, "can I really afford a move when I may or may not be between jobs (see "Job Plans")?" That's a can of worms I file under "Place Plans."
Umm, and then there's school, but I've opened and shut that can of worms so many times, it seems like undue reiteration. "School Plans."
How about, "How shall I tell my grandmother I'm not in school this fall (and what to reply to her when she disowns me)"? Eh, file under "School Plans" -- that works.
Should I go with what I want to do with all these things? As I've told my dad recently (we had one of those Big Talks he's rather fond of), it seems that none of my options are good options, or at least, options that I would like. I seem to be stuck in my planning, between a rock and a hard place.
God, on the other hand, is unrestrained in what He does. He says in Isaiah 46, "My purpose will stand. I will do all that I please." Hey God, can you do some of that in my life?
...Wait, what do you mean you already are?
No comments:
Post a Comment
Add your thoughts!