Things continue

My two comrades-in-arms, Faith and Kyla.
We got to work together at training, and since
then we've been running three different directions!

Now that summer is nearly over, I'm struggling to keep my eyes ahead.

All I really want to do is look back on the last few months and say, "Whew! I'm done!" But I need to plan and prepare for what's ahead, or else what's ahead will jump out at me like so many things this summer. I don't want that.

But then I have to recall that my vacation this year was a drive to Omaha at the start of July, and I haven't had much downtime since. I remember the stressful semester with three jobs and twelve credits at school, and the crying jags, and the extra responsibility that a couple of my bosses decided to throw at me, and how at the end of May I hungered for a vacation longer than a hurried trip to Iowa and a side trip to visit my new nephew. I think of how the last few months I've struggled sleeping with things hanging over my head, and I think, now might be a good time for vacation.

So, what shall prevail? My desire for respite, or my desire to not be lazy? The truth is, I know I need a vacation, but I also know that the demands on my time will never stop; they'll always be there.

A friend of mine reminded me recently that God gives everyone rest. "You're worried and upset," she said, "and God doesn't operate that way." Thinking on what she said returns me to my last semester of high school, and my first semester of college... at Bethany Lutheran College, I was constantly reminded of Mary and Martha, the two sisters who chose either to do good work, or to sit and listen to Jesus. Jesus made no secret of which one chosen the best: "and it will not be taken away from her."

So TL;DR... I need to reprioritize, whether that means a vacay, or just an hour... then I'll be ready to focus on the job ahead.